Wish upon a star

I was surprised at myself, crying with listening to Shige's radio.

In my apartment, it is difficult to catch the wave of Shige's radio. Every weekend I managed to listen to very noisy radio. Sometimes I walk around my room to catch the wave.
His radio got 100th time today.  Shige was very happy to get a formal letter from a man. I am happy too because I want him to known to the ordinary people. When I was not interested in NEWS at all, I did not know about him at all.
I started crying when I heard him saying something negative. He read a letter from a girl.  The letter was such: "I became Shige's fan through your radio. When I started listening, I am not interested in you, but now I love you". He said like this: "she was not interested at me.... sigh ".
I couldn't help crying for him. Poor Shige....
I LOVE YOU. AND OF COURSE THE OTHERS LOVE YOU. WHAT'S WRONG?
Do you always fall in love with a girl (including Koyama?) when you look at the girl for the first time?
I can't do so. I always fall in love when I know much about the boy, because I want know how the boy really is. My only experience is just for Massu! (As Shige is so negative, he might  think negative to hear about this, such as he could not to be like Massu.)

Why I cries for him is not only because he is negative, but also he is negative "like me".
I think he is like me.
So negative. Left handed. Our mothers are from same prefecture. Once studied too hard for the entrance examination. My parents' house and Shige and his family's house are in the same city, very close. (I don't know the exact place.)
I want to tell him, "You are genius. You are well talented. Don't think negative. Smile. Smile for yourself. Don't become like me, a poor woman."
But I also know that, "Shige is negative, because he is Shige".  Because I am so.
I love him. I love that clever boy. I love that poor boy.


I cried again when he whispered "Oyasumi", meaning "good night", at the end of the program.

I will go to Stockholm in the next month. I will write him a letter there. When it reaches at his company, I will already back home. But, I want to tell him that "I am loving you even if I am in my travel."

I just smiles at Massu when I look at him. He makes me happy.
But Shige makes me thinking too much.
However, I love both, of course.

mimiko-chan, please wait for my writing for your reply. I want tell you my love, but I can't do now because now my mind is full of Shige. I am in too heavy feeling. Love ya!^^